Where I have been

Reading this:

with something so deliciously quotable on every page I feellike I need to keep a notebook nearby:

"It wasn't possible; it wasn't possible anymore.  What else?  Was this what came from thoughts of time running out and death; that all of a sudden you didn't know anymore what you wanted?  That you didn't know your own will anymore?  That you lost the obvious familiarity with your own wishes?  And in this way became strange and a problem to yourself?"

"He had never thought of a doctorate; if anyone asked him about it, he only laughed.  Such things didn't matter.  What did matter was something quite simple: to know the ancient texts down to the last detail, to recognize every grammatical and stylistic detail and to know the history of every one of those expressions.  In other words: to be good.  That wasn't modesty--his demands on himself were utterly immodest.  Nor was it eccentricity or a warped kind of vanity.  It had been, he sometimes thought later, a silent rage aimed at a pompous world, an unbending defiance agains tthe world of show-offs who made his father suffer all his life because he has been only a museum guard.  Others, who knew much less than he--ridiculously less, to tell the truth--had gotten degrees and solid positions: they seemed to belong to another, unbearably superficial world with standards he despised." 

"Of the thousand experiences we have, we find language for one at most and even this one merely by chance and without the care it deserves.  Buried under all the mute experiences are those unseen ones that give our life its form, its color, and its melody.  Then, when we turn to these treasures, as archaeologist of the soul, we discover how confusing they are.  The object of contemplation refuses to stand still, the words bounce off the experience and in the end, pure contradictions stand on the paper."

So, sorry about the limited updating, but dang, life is moving fast these days.

Comments

[rachel whetzel]

love the pics!! Why DOES life move so fast?

[Leah C]

LOVE seeing all the gorgeous photos and what you all have been up to!